Just a tear

Doesn't the topic say it all.
Let me start by the tears shed in the airport,
leaving Russia is an ideal thing for me, at first, yes, it's me being strong,
conflicts running into my veins. I want it to be out of my system in no time,
The night before my departure, my eyes were kept awake! Eyebags became heavy,
it has been several nights since i was unable to sleep! Thinking about the life in Russia, and it's greatness. These are the facts, the very few ones that made me look up to the future.
I promised and swore deep down in my heart, i would stay strong! OH YES I WILL! what's so hard about it anyway?

In the airport, i guess i was right, i never was going to cry. My heart stood as firm as a rock, an immovable one! the ones you can see in the beach, and was thousands of years ago, never rusted, never moved. Words were mere words. When i heard the announcement, about me departing, part of me faded away, just like the waters in the seas sweeping off the words of the sand of the beach. Part of me wanted to stay.
Time ticked and ticked crazily fast! and there i was nearly boarding the Immigration Custom, the tears i saw rolling down my mother's cheeks.
I couldn't take it, my heart burst into tears, my facial expression remained still and my words held on saying "Stay strong, mum! I love you". Giving my final goodbyes and hugs were not simple.

Upon reaching Russia, the vision of me in beautiful Russia became blurred. my tears rolled down like crazy! I couldn't take it, depression fell upon me! i couldn't take it, it wasn't Russia, it wasn't the cold, it was the picture depicting the tears of my mother, and the warmth of love i felt in that tears.

But anyways, overcoming wasn't easy, took me a week! All with God's help, my parents' support and the teachings from my Pastor! i managed to go through these DARK AGES!

Till next year, MUM AND DAD, till i reach into your arms, with my wide open heart. Until then, the tears flowed would never go away. This must be the most complicated situation i have ever seen! Love you, Mom and DAD!

Russia!

Russia, the world's most beautiful city, also the most expensive CITY in Russia!
the place where everything revolves hehe, it's so scary! especially when it comes to the fact that you are going to somewhere, a place so foreign (btw, i never in my life crossed the border of Malaysia), i'll update you blog "stalkers' soon aboout my trip there, no worries, heap of news coming! I'll be there for SIX LONG YEARSS! Feel free to leave your house add behind, who knows, i might send you a postcard! :D hehe

=.= Running away is always an option, but in last days like these, where do we run to? to WHOM DO WE CALL to? For me, GOD! JESUS! being in a place where

What the world is coming into? Guys into cows?

The sight everyday, not-serviced trucks spitting out dirty exhaust.. And really? things like this.. Inspires me i guess? Things around me starts inspiring me.. Movies like 'totally forgot'.. LOL, sorry .. refers to men as cows ..? The thought of comparing a man literally with a cow makes me fill my belly(nt tht i have with laughter) ... A man, a cow? How selfish can a man be? The thought of seeing jerks makes chills run back my spine.. It is not like i am one (mayb sometimes i am) but, ya'know.. Guys cheatin their girl, girls running over to somebody else and wt happens to the guy again? LONELY! YEA! it's probably the right word! So what? What does it have to do with cows.. Speaking literally? Since i am a guy! How can girls call guys selfish when they themselves do cheat.. C'mon ladies! stop unrolling back your sleeves and cut the crappy lies and rumours that all girls are innocent .. It is definitely hard to imagine what a girl would do when they get themselves busted! Ironically speaking, yes B-U-S-T-E-D! Girls nowadays love being heart-broken or somehow or rather love breaking guys'heart.. They would simply jump into a man's role by sitting on the coach wit their legs up with the remote on their right hand and popcorns on their left.. Just watching about how things go by as if she's like waatching some tv episode! In the nuitshell, girls simply like guys to wait.. They do express their feelings of love .. yada, yada .. then what does a girl do? Shut up and stare ? How pathetic can some girls be.. (BTW am nt speaking in general).. okay, another introductory of a girl's character is.. BITCHING .. yea, a girl who flirts and winks at another.. Looking into guy's eyes making them fall in love with them just so that bed would be one option or simply just the money... yea, money makes the world go round.. What could guys do without the money these days! Men would just extinct out of the world categorized as 'hot girls'... they'll be like "sorry but u ain't on the list'... see wt i'm talking about.. So may i conclude that girls should never call guys a snort, A PLAYER, or whatevr word u can think of to describe a lousy bf cuz i would suggest that u'll take a good look in the mirror to rectify your own judgement and predicament about others .. =D Peace ...

Puppy's love-everlasting?

.The first time i saw u, my heart dropped.. I was like "wow, who is that beautiful girl sitting across the classroom..".. She looks familiar .. Its like i've seen her somewher.. My eyes, kept looking away but my heart tells me, Justin, u're going to meet ur love.. Chuckled, i murmured to myself, that wud definitely be a joke.. Who believes in love.. ? My again.. My heart kept pushing my feelings closer and closer to her.. That's stupid.. Really stupid.. How can i possibly fall in love wit someone when i'm still wt? Standard 5-primary school.. Ridiculous! Lol, girls mature faster than guys.. Scientific theories are proven over and over again to rectify the doubts of our society..but for me?.. I'm an exception.. I'm totally in love.. Love for another being outside the circle of my family and friends.. Haih, but when next year came, all hopes are gone.. She was in a different class.. Ok? That was truly dissapointing.. Day by day, i walked past her to get at least a glimpse look at her.. The spark in her eyes, the flash of her smile and the beauty that shone within her made me feel like a plant.. I need carbon dioxide and water to survive my day.. Oh, i felt happy until...... Out of a sudden, feelings, intimate ones began drainin out from my love level for her.. Why? Why?.. I asked myself.. But till today the question still remains unanswered.. Puppy love, don't u think?

*yawn*... Second chance, maybe?..

Hey..again.. Lol, i'm just wondering.. What perfectly makes a blog interesting and heart-captivating?..cuz i've no idea wt to write and i can c other ppl's blogs are full of their stories which have some interesting ones and some drop-dead stories.. Hmm, give me time to improve my blog.. Let me think about things to write before i start crapping like everybody else..

Ok?..

Yay! Exam is finally over!.. Lol, sorry for not updating my blog for a long time.. Two reasons!.. 1st, its leceh to type the stuffs out and i only do this thing when I'M FREE.. Lol, secondly, i keep forgettin my password.. So, its kinda like a disturbance to me la.. Lol, ok, where do i start?.. Hmm!... Exam first.. Let me c.. Exam was ok.. Some really hard and the rest is do-able.. But all glory goes to Jesus if i get all aces... Its hard actually to score all A+ but nothin is impossible wit God.. Yea, i'm really feeling glad cuz the exam was like three weeks.. Three frustrating weeks!.. Without God, i'm like kinda dead now cuz of the stress that kills.. Seriously! It really does.. So many more to study and SPM IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER.. Just in approximately a month, the akhirat will come.. Lol.. Haih,... Speakin of exams, there's somethin else tht got bigger besides my brain.. Its my EYEBAG! Lol.. I sleep so much during exam periods.. But the eyebags just got bigger... The noise of the class today is still drumming in my ears.. And thk god!, i'm not takin any other further subjects.. Or i wud've gone to school.. Lol, tell me bout ur random stuffs here la.. I wanna hear from y'all.. Ciauz